Seasons 1 thru 7 - VoiceOvers

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Seasons 1 thru 7 - VoiceOvers
Topic Started: Nov 20 2008, 04:46 PM (149 Views)
oncetherewasaway	Nov 20 2008, 04:46 PM Post #1
McEditor Posts: 1,625 Group: .Grey Girls. Member #23 Joined: October 25, 2006	Season 1 1.01 A Hard’s Day Night The game. They say a person either has what it takes to play or they don’t. My mother was one of the greats. Me on the other hand, I’m kinda screwed. Like I said. I’m screwed. I can’t think of any one reason on why I want to be a surgeon. But I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose. There are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when … it’s more than just a game. And you either take that step forward. Or turn around and walk away. I could quit. But here’s the thing. I love the playing field. 1.02 The First Cut is the Deepest It's all about lines. The finish line at the end of residency, waiting in line for a chance at the operating table, and then there's the most important line, the line separating you from the people you work with. It doesn't help to get too familiar to make friends. You need boundaries, between you and the rest of the world. Other people are far too messy. It's all about lines. Drawing lines in the sand and praying like hell no one crosses them. At some point you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out; they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know. If you're willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side is spectacular. 1.03 Winning a Battle, Losing the War We live out our lives on the surgical unit. Seven days a week, fourteen hours a day. We’re together more than we’re apart. After a while … … the ways of residency … … become the ways of life. Number One … … always keep score. Number two. Do whatever you can to outsmart the other guy. Number three. Don’t make friends with the enemy. Oh and yeah number four. Everything. Everything is a competition. Whoever said that winning wasn’t everything … … never held a scalpel. There’s another way to survive this competition. A way that no one ever seems to tell you about. One you have to learn for yourself. Number five. It’s not about the race at all. There are no winners or losers. Victories are counted by the number of lives saved. And once in a while, if you’re smart, the life you save could be your own. 1.04 No Man’s Land Intimacy is a four syllable word for here is my heart and soul, please grind into hamburger, and enjoy. It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know. I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself. 1.05 Shake Your Groove Thing Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd get a bike for your birthday or if you'd get to eat cookies for breakfast? Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. And if you're training to be a surgeon, holding a human heart in your hands, hello? Talk about responsibility. Kind of makes bikes and cookies look really, really good, doesn't it? The scariest part about responsibility? When you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers. Responsibility, it really does suck. Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away. It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences. And still adulthood has it perks. I mean the shoes, the sex, the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. That's, pretty damn good. 1.06 If Tomorrow Never Comes A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that till tomorrow", he said, "Which you could do today." This is the man who discovered electricity. You'd think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd say it had a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong. What if you make a mistake you can't undo. Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true. That by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it. It can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically. The early bird catches the worm; a stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to 'seize the day'. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying. 1.07 The Self-Destruct Button OK. Anyone who says you can laugh when you die, tell them to come talk to me after a few months as an intern. Of course, it's not just the job that keeps us up all night. I mean, if life's so hard already, why do we bring more trouble down on ourselves? What's up with the need to hit the self-destruct button? Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know, maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop. 1.08 Save Me You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be – white dress, prince charming who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa clause, the tooth fairy, prince charming –they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true. At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale is slightly different than your dream. The castle, well it may not be a castle. And it's not so important that it's happily ever after – just that it's happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away. 1.09 Who’s Zoomin’ Who? Secrets can't hide in science. Medicine has a way of exposing lies. Within the walls of the hospital, the truth is stripped bare. How we keep our secrets outside the hospital – well, that's a little different. One thing is certain, whatever it is we're trying to hide; we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets – like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything, until you don't have room for anything else, until you're so full of secrets you feel like you're going to burst. The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not. Edited by oncetherewasaway, Apr 18 2009, 11:21 AM.



oncetherewasaway	Nov 20 2008, 04:50 PM Post #2
McEditor Posts: 1,625 Group: .Grey Girls. Member #23 Joined: October 25, 2006	Season 2 2.01 Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head To be a good surgeon you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture, and close. But sometimes you're faced with a cut that won't heal. A cut that rips its stitches wide open. They say that practice makes perfect. Theory is– the more you think like a surgeon, the more you become like one, the better you get at remaining neutral, clinical, cut, suture, close - the harder it becomes to turn it off. To stop thinking like a surgeon, and remember what it means to think like a human being. 2.02 Enough Is Enough I have an aunt who whenever she poured anything for you she would say "Say when!" My aunt would say "Say when!" and of course, we never did. We don't say when because there's something about the possibility, of more. More tequila, more love, more anything. More is better. There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless. And all we want, is more. 2.03 Make Me Lose Control Surgeons are control freaks. With a scalpel in your hand, you feel unstoppable. There's no fear, there's no pain. Cristina: Hello. Meredith: [voiceover] You're ten-feet tall and bulletproof. Cristina: Do you think we'd feel better if we cried? You know, just like let it out? Meredith: Probably. Yeah. Meredith: [voiceover] And then you leave the OR. Cristina: Do you wanna cry now? Meredith: No! Cristina: Ok, let's jog. Meredith: [voiceover] And all that perfection, all that beautiful control, just falls to crap. No one likes to lose control, but as a surgeon there's nothing worse. It's a sign of weakness, of not being up to the task. And still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning and you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell. Except there's an upside to free-falling. It's the chance you give your friends to catch you. 2.04 Deny, Deny, Deny The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces. Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it? 2.05 Bring the Pain Pain, it comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain that we live with everyday. Then there is the kind of pain you just can't ignore, a level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else, makes the rest of your world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt, how we manage our pain is up to us. We anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it, and for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it, and life always makes more. 2.06 Into You Like a Train In general, people can be categorized in one of two ways -- those who love surprises and those who don't. I don't. I've never met a surgeon that enjoys a surprise, because as surgeons, we like to be in the know. We have to be in the know, because when we aren't, people die and lawsuits happen. Am I rambling? I think I'm rambling. Okay, so my point, actually, and I do have one, has nothing to do with surprises or death or lawsuits, or even surgeons. My point is this: whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you", was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. [Sees two people with a pole cutting through them.] Okay, fine. Maybe it's the second worst. As surgeons, there are so many things we have to know. We have to know we have what it takes. We have to know how to take care of our patients... and how to take care of each other. Eventually, we even have to figure out how to take care of ourselves. As surgeons we have to be in the know. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark, because in the dark there may be fear, but there's also hope. 2.07 Something to Talk About Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need. At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say because there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.. 2.08 Let It Be In the 8th grade my English class had to read Romeo & Juliet. Then for extra credit, Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts. Sal Scafarillo was Romeo. As fate would have it, I was Juliet… Most of the girls were green with envy. I wasn't. I told Ms. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. For one thing, she falls for the one guy she knows she can't have… Everyone thinks it's so romantic: Romeo and Juliet, true love...how sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink a bottle of poison, and go to sleep in a mausoleum, then she deserved everything she got. Maybe Romeo and Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while, and then their time passed. If they could have known that beforehand, maybe it all would have been okay. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was grown up, I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone, and that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even now, I believe that for the most part, love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending...most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway. 2.09 Thanks for the Memories Gratitude, appreciation, giving thanks. No matter what words you use, they all mean the same thing. Happy. We're supposed to be happy. Grateful for friends, family. Happy just to be alive. Whether we like it or not. Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.. 2.10 Much Too Much When you were a kid, it was Halloween candy. You hid it from your parents and you ate it until you got sick. In college, it was the heavy combo of youth, tequila and well, you know. As a surgeon, you take as much of the good as you can get because it doesn't come around nearly as often as it should. 'Cause good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing. How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask... And when is it all just too much to bear? 2.11 Owner of a Lonely Heart Forty years ago, the Beatles asked the world a simple question: they wanted to know where all the lonely people came from. My latest theory is that a great many of the lonely people come from hospitals. More precisely, the surgical wing of hospitals. As surgeons, we ignore our own needs so we can meet our patients' needs. We ignore our friends and families so we can save other people's friends and families. Which means that, at the end of the day, all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that. Four hundred years ago, another well-known English guy had an opinion on being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course it was fancier when he said it. No man is an island entire unto himself. Boil down that island talk and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone. And who's to say that someone can't have four legs. Someone to play with, or run around with, or just hang out. 2.12 Grandma Got Run Over By a Reindeer It's an urban myth that suicide rates spike at the holidays. Turns out they actually go down. Experts think it's because people are less inclined to off themselves when surrounded by family. Ironically, that same family togetherness is thought to be the reason that depression rates actually do spike at the holidays. Yeah, okay. Izzie doesn't count. There's an old proverb that says you can't choose your family. You take what the fates hand you. And like them or not, love them or not, understand them or not, you cope. Then there's the school of thought that says the family you're born into is simply a starting point. They feed you, and clothe you, and take care of you until you're ready to go out into the world and find your tribe. 2.13 Begin the Begin Fresh starts thanks to the calendar they happen every year --just set your watch to January, our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of new years resolutions, put your past behind you and start over. It's hard to resist the chance of a new beginning, a chance to put the problems of last year to bed. Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not on the calendar, it's not a birthday, it's not a new year, it's an event --big or small, something that changes us, ideally it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to. 2.14 Tell Me Sweet Little Lies As doctors, we're trained to be skeptical, because our patients lie to us all the time. The rule is, every patient is a liar until proven honest. Lying is bad. Or so we are told constantly from birth—honesty is the best policy, the truth shall set you free, I chopped down the cherry tree, whatever. The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth, the truth freaking hurts. No matter how hard we try to ignore or deny it, eventually the lies fall away, whether we like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth: It hurts. So we lie. 2.15 Break On Through In surgery there is a red line on the floor that marks the point where the hospital goes from being accessible to being off limits to all but a special few. Crossing the line, unauthorized is not tolerated. In general, lines are there for a reason. For safety. For security. For clarity. If you choose to cross the line, you pretty much do so at your own risk. So why is it … … the bigger the line, the greater the temptation to cross it? We can't help ourselves. We see a line, we want to cross it. Maybe it's the thrill of trading the familiar for the unfamiliar. A sort of personal dare. Only problem is, once you've crossed it's almost impossible to go back. But if you do manage to make it back across that line you find safety in numbers. 2.16 It’s the End of the World Cristina: You're smarter than me Izzie: You have great hair. Meredith: I'm in love with you, George. I always have been, and I always will be. Meredith [voice-over]: [George falls out of his bed] see, I told you, not my dream Izzie: George if you keeping stopping up the toilet, you are going to have to learn how to use a plunger or we are going to make you crap in the backyard. What are you doing on the floor? Get up, somethings wrong with Meredith. [cut to Meredith in bed; George and Izzie standing around her.] Izzie: [to Meredith] You have to go to work. You're an intern. Saving lives is not optional. It’s a look patients get in their eyes. There is a scent. A smell of death. Some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is headed for you, you feel it coming. What’s the one thing you’ve always dreamed of doing before you die? Okay, hello clearly not my dream. See I told you, not my dream What did I do, what did I do, what did I do, what did I do? 2.17 As We Know It In hospitals they say you know, you know you're going to die. Some doctors say it's a look patients get in their eyes. Some say there's a scent, a smell of death. Some say it's some kind of 6th sense, when the great beyond is headed for you, you feel it coming. Whatever it is, it's creepy. Because what do you do? That powerlessness, not being able to do anything. If you knew this was your last day on earth, how would you want to spend it? 2.18 Yesterday After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here's what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown-up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. And just we think life and circumstances have forced us to truly once and for all become an adult, your mother says something like that. Or worse, something like that. We get bigger, we get taller, we get older. But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in. I've heard that it's possible to grow up, I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way. We whisper secrets with our best friend, in the dark. We look for comfort where we can find it. And we hope against all logic, against all experience, like children, we never give up hope. 2.19 What Have I Done to Deserve This? George: Okay, so, sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we're going to regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after. I mean, maybe not regret, regret because at least, you know, we put ourselves out there. But...still. Something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know will probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway. What I'm saying is...we reap what we sow. what comes around goes around. It's karma and, any way you slice it...karma sucks. George: One way or another our karma will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up on us from behind. One way or another, our karma will always find us. And the truth is, as surgeons, we have more chances than most to set the balance in our favor. No matter how hard we try we can't escape our karma. It follows us home. I guess we can't really complain about our karma. It's not unfair. It's not unexpected. It just...evens the score. And even when we're about to do something we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass...well, it goes without saying. We do it anyway. 2.20 Band-Aid Covers the Bullet Hole As doctors, patients are always telling us how they'd do our jobs. Just stitch me up, slap a band-aid on it and send me home. It's easy to suggest a quick solution, when you don't know much about the problem or you don't understand the underlying cause or just how deep the wound is. The first step toward a real cure is to know exactly what the disease is to begin with. But that's not what people want to hear. We're supposed to forget the past that led us here, ignore the future complications that might arise and go for the quick fix. As doctors, as friends, as human beings, we all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. And just when you've gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you shifts. And knocks you off your feet. If you're lucky, you'll end up with nothing more than a flesh wound, something a band-aid will cover. But, some wounds are deeper than they first appear and require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip off the band-aid, let them breathe, and give them time to heal. 2.21 Superstition My college campus has a magic statue. It's a longstanding tradition for students to rub its nose for good luck. My freshman roommate really believed in the statue's power and insisted on visiting it to rub its nose before every exam. Studying might have been a better idea, she flunked out her sophomore year. The fact is, we all have little superstitious things we do. If it's not believing in magic statues, it's avoiding sidewalk cracks or always putting our left shoe on first. Knock on wood. Step on a crack, break your mothers back. The last thing we want to do is offend the gods. Superstition lies in the space between what we can control and what we can't. Find a penny, pick it up, and all day long you'll have good luck. No one wants to pass up a chance for good luck. But does saying it thirty three times really help? Is anyone really listening? And if no ones listening, why do we bother doing those strange things. We rely on superstitions because we're smart enough to know we don't have all the answers. And that life works in mysterious ways. Don't diss the juju, from wherever it comes. 2.22 The Name of the Game A good basketball game can have us all on the edge of our seats. Games are all about the glory, pain and the play by play. And then there are the more solitary games. The games we play all by ourselves. The social games, the mind games. We use them to pass the time to make life more interesting... to distract us from what's really going on. There are those of us who love to play games, any games. And there are those of us who love to play a little too much. So go ahead... argue with the ref, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play. Play. Play hard, play fast... play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Okay, so it's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game... right? 2.23 Blues for Sister Someone The key to being a successful intern is what we give up: sleep, friends, a normal life. We sacrifice it all for that one amazing moment, that moment when you can legally call yourself a surgeon. There are days that make the sacrifices seem worthwhile. And then there are the days where everything feels like a sacrifice. And then there are the sacrifices that you can't even figure out why you're making. A wise man once said you can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it... what he meant is nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right; and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. Of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming, when we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear. 2.24 Damage Case We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves, to other people. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we've done, or that's been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage. And sometimes the damage is something we can't even see. We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us, more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood, then as grownups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then, we set about the business of fixing whatever we can. 2.25 17 Seconds In life we are taught that there are seven deadly sins. We all know the big ones... gluttony, pride, lust. But the thing you don't hear much about is anger. Maybe it's because we think anger is not that dangerous, that you can control it. My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. After all when it comes to destructive behavior, it did make the top seven. So what makes anger different from the six other deadly sins? It's pretty simple really, you give into a sin like envy or pride and you only hurt yourself. Try lust or coveting and you'll only hurt yourself and one or two others. But anger, anger is the worst... the mother of all sins... Not only can anger drive you over the edge, when it does you can take an awful lot of people with you. 2.26 Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response Meredith: Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. George: Family . . . Cristina: Love . . . Izzie: Sex. Derek: But we only need one thing . . . Burke: To actually be alive. Cristina: We need a beating heart. Addison: When our heart is threatened . . . Alex: we respond in one of two ways. George: We either run or . . . Izzie: we attack. Chief: There's a scientific term for this: Alex: Fight . . . Addison: or flight. Bailey: It's instinct . . . Meredith: We can't control it. Izzie: Or can we? 2.27 Losing My Religion Edited by oncetherewasaway, Apr 4 2009, 12:57 AM.



oncetherewasaway	Nov 20 2008, 04:50 PM Post #3
McEditor Posts: 1,625 Group: .Grey Girls. Member #23 Joined: October 25, 2006	Season 3 3.01 Time Has Come Today Time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. For even the strongest of us it seems to play tricks. Slowing down... hovering until it freezes. Leaving us stuck in a moment- unable to move in one direction or the other. Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us can want is more time. Time to stand up. Time to grow up. Time to let go. Time. 3.02 I Am a Tree At any given moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don't have control over most of them. When we get a chill...goose bumps. When we get excited...adrenaline. The body naturally follows it's impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we would rather not control, that we later wish we had. The body is a slave to it's impulses. But the thing that makes us human is what we can control. After the storm, after the rush, after the heat of the moment has passed, we can cool off and clean up the messes we made. We can try to let go of what was. Then again... 3.03 Sometimes a Fantasy Surgeons usually fantasize about wild and improbable surgeries. Someone collapses in a restaurant, you splice them open with a butter knife, replace a valve with a hollowed out stick of carrot-- but every now and then some other kind of fantasy slips in. Most of our fantasies resolve when we wake, vanished to the back of our mind, but sometimes we're sure if we try hard enough-- we can live the dream. The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams. 3.04 What I Am At some point during surgical residency, most interns get a sense of who they are as doctors and the kinds of surgeons they want to become. If you ask them, they'll tell you they want to be general surgeons, orthopaedic surgeons, neurosurgeons. Distinctions which do more than describe their area of expertise, they define who they are, because outside the operating room, not only do most surgeons have no idea who they are, they're also afraid to find out. Denny: Dad, mom...It's me. I'm calling from Seattle Grace Hospital where the beautiful, talented and incredibly stubborn Dr. Isobel Stevens has, she's just given me a brand new heart and promised to marry me. I know we've had our differences and I'm sorry we've been out of touch. Believe it or not, I was trying to make everything better. I know you're angry and I hope you'll forgive me. It turns out, sometimes you have to do the wrong thing. Sometimes you have to make a big mistake to figure out how to make things right. Mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to find out who you really are. I know who I am now. I know what I want. I've got the love of my life, a new heart and I want you guys to get on the next plane out here and meet my girl. Everything's gonna be different now, I promise. From here on out, Nothings ever going to be the same. I love you, bye. 3.05 Oh the Guilt First, do no harm. As doctors, we pledge to live by this oath. But harm happens and then guilt happens. And there is no oath for how to deal with that. Guilt never goes anywhere on its own, it brings its friends - doubt and insecurity. We are left with a choice. Either let the guilt throw you back into the behavior that got you into trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt and do your best to move on. 3.06 Let the Angels Commit To make it - really make it - as a surgeon - it takes major commitment. We have to be willing to pick up that scalpel and make a cut that may or may not do more damage than good. It's all about being committed, because if we're not? We have no business picking up that scalpel in the first place. There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we're willing to let slip out of our grasp. Commitments are complicated. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we're willing to make. True commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully. 3.07 Where the Boys Are As surgeons, we are trained to look for disease. Sometimes the problem is easily detected, most of the time we need to go step by step. First, probing the surface looking for any sign of trouble. Most of the time, we can't tell what's wrong with somebody by just looking at them. After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside, while their insides tell a whole other story. Not all wounds are superficial. Most wounds run deeper than you can imagine. You can't see them with the naked eye. And then there are the wounds that take us by surprise. The trick with any kind of wound or disease is to dig down and find the real source of the pain - and once you've found it, try like hell to heal that sucker. 3.08 Staring at the Sun Many people don't know that the human eye has a blind spot in its field of vision. There is a part of the world that we are really blind to. The problem is, sometimes our blind spots shield us from things that really shouldn't be ignored. Sometimes our blind spots keep our lives bright and shiny. When it comes to our blind spots, maybe our brains aren't compensating. Maybe they're protecting us. 3.09 From a Whisper to a Scream Cristina: As doctors, we know everybody's secrets. Their medical histories. Sexual histories. Confidential information that is as essential to a surgeon as a ten-blade, and every bit as dangerous. We keep secrets, we have to, but not all secrets can be kept. 3.10 Don't Stand So Close to Me At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need. 3.11 Six Days, Part 1 3.12 Six Days, Part 2 3.13 Great Expectations No one believes that their life will turn out just kind of okay. We all think we are going to be great. And from the day we decide to be surgeons, we are filled with expectation. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go. We all think we're going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met. But sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still. The expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives. 3.14 Wishin' and Hopin' As surgeons, we live in a world of worse case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because too many times the best doesn't happen. But every now and then something extraordinary occurs and suddenly best case scenarios seem possible. And every now and then something amazing happens, and against our better judgment we start to have hope. As doctors, we're trained to give our patients just the facts. But what our patients really want to know is- will the pain go away? Will I feel better? Am I cured? What our patients really want to know is- is there hope? But, inevitably, there are times when you find yourself in the worst case scenario. When the patient's body has betrayed them and all the science we have to offer has failed them. When the worst case scenario comes true, clinging to hope is all we've got left. 3.15 Walk on Water Disappearances happen in science. Disease can suddenly fade away. Tumors go missing. We open someone up to discover the cancer is gone. It's unexplained, it's rare, but it happens. We call it misdiagnosis, say we never saw it in the first place, any explanation but the truth. That life is full of vanishing acts. If something that we didn't know we had disappears, do we miss it? 3.16 Drowning on Dry Land Like I said, disappearances happen, pains go phantom, life stops running, and people...people fade away. There's more I have to say...so much more, but I disappeared. 3.17 Some Kind of Miracle There are medical miracles. Being worshippers at the alter of science, we don't like to believe miracles exist, but they do. Things happen. We can't explain them. We can't control them, but they do happen. At the end of a day like this, a day when so many prayers are answered, and so many aren't. We take our miracles where we find them. We reach across the gap, and sometimes against all odds, against all logic, we touch. 3.18 Scars and Souvenirs People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places, like secret road maps of their personal histories, diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our old wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar, but some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and even though the cuts long gone, the pain still lingers. What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something, they remind us where we've been and what we've overcome, they teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think, but that's not the way it is, is it? Somethings you just have to learn over and over and over again. 3.19 My Favorite Mistake Surgeons always have a plan. Where to cut, where to clamp, where to stitch. But even with the best plans complications can arise. Things go wrong and suddenly you're caught with your pants down. The thing about plans is they don't take into account the unexpected. So, when we're thrown a curve ball, whether it's in the OR or in life we have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it then others. Some of us just have to move on to plan b and make the best of it. And sometimes, what we want is exactly what we need. But sometimes, sometimes what we need is a new plan! 3.20 Time After Time Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new? It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us... what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we’re making today. 3.21 Desire Desire. It consumes us all, for better or worse. Especially when we want what we can't have... or don't even know what we want at all. 3.22 and 03.23 The Other side of This Life(2 hour Addison spin -off) 3.24 Testing 1-2-3 3.25 Didn't We Almost Have It All Edited by oncetherewasaway, Nov 20 2008, 05:22 PM.



oncetherewasaway	Nov 20 2008, 04:51 PM Post #4
McEditor Posts: 1,625 Group: .Grey Girls. Member #23 Joined: October 25, 2006	Season 4 4.01 A Change Is Gonna Come Meredith: [voiceover] In the practice of medicine, change is inevitable. New surgical techniques are created, procedures are updated, levels of expertise increase. Innovation is everything, nothing remains the same for long. We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. Meredith: Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh sometimes change is good. Oh sometimes change is everything. 4.03 Love/Addiction Meredith: [voice over] In the hospital we see addiction everyday, it’s shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it was just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean we get addicted for a reason .... right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point just cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It’s the high we’re chasing, the high that makes everything else.......fade away. Meredith: [voice over] The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Because eventually whatever it is that was getting us high, stop feeling good and starts to hurt. Still they say you don’t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you’re there. Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse. 4.03 Let the Truth Sting Meredith: [voice over] Doctors give patients a number things. We give them medicine, we give them advice and most of the time we give them our undivided attention. But by far the hardest thing you can give a patient is the truth. The truth is hard, the truth is awkward and very often the truth hurts. I mean .... people say they want the truth but do they really? Meredith: [voice over] The truth is painful. Deep down nobody wants to hear it especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to really hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can’t help ourselves. And sometimes ..... we tell them ..... because we owe .... them at least that much. Izzie: Charlie the truth is you were a bastard, you were. You were mean and stubborn just, a bastard. But you were a bastard who knew what you wanted. And you stuck to your guns and proved if you want something bad enough, if you're determined enough, if you're patient enough eventually it will happen. It will. And that gives me hope and thanks for that. 4.04 The Heart of the Matter Meredith: [voice over] In life only one thing is certain apart from death and taxes, no matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions....you are going to make mistakes. You are going to hurt people, you’re going to get hurt and if you ever want to recover ..... there’s really only one thing you can say. Meredith: [voice over] Forgive and forget, that’s what they say. It’s good advice but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness old scores are never settled. Old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for .... is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget 4.05 Haunt You Every Day Meredith: [voice over] There’s a reason surgeons learn to wield scalpels, we like to pretend we’re hard cold scientists..We like to pretend we’re fearless. But the truth is we become surgeons because somewhere, deep down, we think we can cut away that which haunts us. Weakness, frailty, death. Meredith: [voice over] It isn’t just surgeons. The truth is I don’t know anyone who isn’t haunted by something.... or someone. And whether we try to slice the pain away with a scalpel or shove it in the back the back of a closet, our efforts usually fail. So the only way we can clear out the cobwebs is to turn a new page. Or put an old story to rest. Finally, finally to rest. 4.06 Kung Fu Fighting Meredith: [voice over] There’s this thing about being a surgeon. Maybe it’s pride or maybe it’s just about being tough but a true surgeon never admits they need help unless absolutely necessary. Surgeons don’t need to ask for help because they’re tougher than that. Surgeons are cowboys, rough around the edges, hardcore. At least that’s what they want you to think. Meredith: [voice over] Deep down everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore but hardcore isn’t just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments it’s the best thing you can possibly do. As long as you choose your moments wisely. 4.07 Physical Attraction... Chemical Reaction Meredith: [voice over] Before we were doctors, we were med students which meant we spent a lot of time studying chemistry. Organic chemistry. Bio-chemistry. We learned it all. But when you’re talking about human chemistry only one thing matters. Either you’ve got it or you don’t. Meredith: [voice over] Chemistry. Either you’ve got it or you don’t. Episode 4.08 'Forever Young' Meredith: [voice over] There comes a point in your life when you’re officially an adult. Suddenly you’re old enough to vote, drink and engage in other adult activities. Suddenly people expect you to be responsible, serious, a grown-up. We get taller ..... we get older ..... but do we ever really grow up. Meredith: [voice over] In some ways we grow up. We have families, we get married, divorced. But for the most part we still have the same problems that we did when we were fifteen. No matter how much we grow taller, grow older..... we are still forever stumbling, forever wondering......forever...... young. 4.09 Crash Into Me - Part 1 Meredith: [voice over] We go into medicine because we want to save lives. We go into medicine because we want to do good. We go into medicine for the rush... for the high... for the ride. But, what we remember at the end of most days are the losses. What we lay awake at night replaying is the pain we caused or failed to cure. The lives we ruined or failed to save. So the experience of practicing medicine rarely resembles the goal. The experience too often is ass backwards and upside down. 4.10 Crash Into Me - Part 2 Meredith [voiceover]: At the end of the day, the experience of practicing medicine bears little resemblance to the dream. We go into medicine because we want to save lives. We go into medicine because we want to do good. We go into medicine for the rush, for the high, for the ride. But what we remember at the end of most days are the losses. What we like awake at night replaying is the pain we caused. The ills we couldn't cure, the lives we ruined...or failed to save. At the end of the day the reality is nothing like we hope. The reality is...at the end of the day more often than not turned inside out and upside down. Meredith: [voiceover] Some days the whole world seems upside down. And then some how, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again. 4.11 Lay Your Hands On Me Miranda: [voice over] In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth... at least that’s what they say. He created the birds in the air and the beast of the fields and He looked at his creation and He saw that it was good. And then God created man and it’s been downhill ever since. The story goes on to say that God created man in His own image.... but there’s not much proof of that, after all God man the sun and the moon and the stars and all man makes is trouble. And when man finds himself in trouble, which is most of the time, he turns to something bigger than himself. To love or fate or religion to makes sense of it all. But for a surgeon the only thing that makes any kind of sense is medicine. Miranda: [voice over] As doctors we know more about the human body now than at any other point in our history. But the miracle of life itself, why people live and die, why they hurt or get hurt is still a mystery. We want to know the reason, the secret answer at the back of the book. Because the thought of our being all alone down here is just too much for us to bear. But the at the end of the day the fact that we show up for each other in spite of our differences, no matter what we believe is reason enough to keep believing. 4.12 Where The Wild Things Are Meredith: [voice over] We like to think we are rational beings; humane, conscientious, civilized, thoughtful. But when things fall apart even just a little, it becomes clear --- we're no better than animals. We have opposable thumbs. We think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream. But deep down we're all still rooting around in the primordial ooze; biting, clawing, scratching out an existence in the cold dark world like the rest of the tree toads and sloths. Meredith: [voice over ] There's a little animal in all of us.....and maybe that's something to celebrate. Our animal instinct is what makes us seek comfort, a pac to run with. We may feel caged, we may feel trapped. But still as humans we can find ways to feel free. We are each other's keepers. We are the guardians of our own humanity. And even though there's a beast inside all of us....what sets us apart from the animals is that we can think.....feel.....dream and love. And AGAINST ALL ODDS AGAINST ALL INSTINCTS......we EVOLVE. 4.13 Piece of my Heart Meredith: [voice over] Great surgeons aren't made they're born. It takes gestation, incubation, sacrifice. A lot of sacrifice. But after all the blood and guts and gooey stuff is washed away, that surgeon you become? Totally worth it! Meredith: [voice over] Giving birth may be all intense and magical, but the act itself is not exactly pleasant. But its also a beginning of something incredible .... something new .... something unpredictable something true ... something worth loving ..... something worth missing ..... and something that will change your life forever. But its also a beginning of something incredible. 4.14 The Becoming Meredith: [voice over] There's this person in my head. She's brilliant, capable, she can do chest tubes and craniotomies. She can run a code without fre.aking out, she's a really good surgeon...maybe even a great surgeon. She is me.......only so much better. Meredith: [voice over]It was a good day, maybe even a great day. I was a good doctor even when it was hard. I was the me in my head. It was the moment when I thought "I can't do this...I can't do this alone" But I closed my eyes and imagined myself doing it. I blocked out the fear and did it!



oncetherewasaway	Nov 20 2008, 04:51 PM Post #5
McEditor Posts: 1,625 Group: .Grey Girls. Member #23 Joined: October 25, 2006	Season 5 5.01 ~ 5.02 – Dream a Little Dream of Me We all remember the bedtime stories of our childhoods. The shoe fits Cinderella, the frog turns into a prince, Sleeping Beauty is awakened with a kiss. Once upon a time, and then they lived happily ever after. Fairy tales, the stuff of dreams. The problem is, fairy tales don't come true. It's the other stories, the ones that begin with 'dark and stormy nights' and end in the unspeakable. It's the nightmares that always seem to become reality. The person who invented the phrase 'happily ever after' should have his a.ss kicked so hard! Once upon a time, happily ever after. The stories we tell are the stuff of dreams. Fairy tales don't come true. Reality is much stormier. Much murkier. Much scarier. Reality. It's so much more interesting than living happily ever after. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.03 – Here Comes the Flood As surgeons we are trained to fix what’s broken. The breaking point is our starting line.... at work. But in our lives, the breaking point is a sign of weakness. And we’ll do everything we can to avoid it. Bones break. Organs burst. Flesh tears. We can sew the flesh, repair the damage, ease the pain. But when life breaks down ... when we break down, there’s no science... no hard and fast rules. We just have to feel our way through. And to a surgeon there’s nothing worse and there’s nothing better. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.04 – Brave New World In 6500BC, some guy looked at his sick friend and said "I have an idea. Why don't I drill a hole in your skull? It'll make you feel better." Thus, surgery was born. It takes a certain brand of crazy to come up with an idea like drilling into somebody's skull, but, surgeons have always been a confident bunch. We usually know what we're doing, and when we don't we still act like we do. We walk boldly into undiscovered country, plant a flag and start ordering people around. It's invigorating... and terrifying. We like to think we're fearless, eager to explore unknown lands and soak up new experiences. But the fact is, we're always terrified. Maybe the terror is part of the attraction - some people go to horror movies... we cut things open... dive into dark water. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.05 – There's No 'I' in Team I am a rock. I am an island. That’s the mantra of pretty much every surgeon I’ve ever met. We like to think we’re independent, loners, mavericks.... that all we need to do our job is an OR, a scalpel and a willing body. But the truth is, not even the best of us can do it alone. Surgery, like life, is a team sport. And eventually you have to get off the bench and decide what team are you batting for. The thing about choosing teams in real life, it’s nothing like it used to be in gym class. Being first pick can be terrifying and being chosen last isn’t the worst thing in the world. So we watch from the sidelines, clinging to our isolation. Because we know as soon as we let go of the bench, someone comes along and changes the game completely. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.06 – Life During Wartime For a surgeon, every patient is a battlefield. There are terrain where we advance, retreat, try to remember all the lands. And just when you think you’ve won the battle, made the world safe again along comes another landmine. Some wars are never over. Some end in an uneasy truce. Some wars result in complete and total victory. Some wars end with a peace offering. And some wars end in hope. But all these wars are nothing compared to the most the most frightening war of all. The one you have yet to fight. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.07 – RISE UP If you are a normal person, one of the few things you can count on in life is death. But, if you are a surgeon, even that comfort is taken away from you. Surgeons cheat death. We prolong it, we deny it. We stand and defiantly give death the finger. We put things to rest, only to have them rise up again. So if death is not the end, what can you count on anymore? Because you sure can't count on anything in life. Life is the most fragile, unstable, unpredictable thing there is. In fact, there is only one thing about life we can be sure of. It ain't over till it's over. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.08 – These Ties That Bind It's intense what happens in the OR when lives are on the line and you are poking at brains like it is silly putty. You form a bond with the surgeons right next to you. An unbreakable, undesirable bond. It is intimate being tied together like that whether you like them or not you become family. The ties that bind us are sometimes impossible to explain. They connect us even after it seems like the ties should be broken. Some bonds defy,distance, time and logic. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.09 – In the Midnight Hour When you're little night time is scarey because there are monsters hiding right under the bed. When you get older the monsters are different. Self doubt! Loneliness! Regret! And though you may be older and wiser you still find yourself scared of the dark. Sleep! It's the easiest thing to do. You just close your eyes. But for so many of us sleep seems out of our grasp. We want it but we don't know how to get it. But once we face our demons, face our fears and turn to each other for help night time isn't so scarey, because we realize we aren't all alone in the dark. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.11 – Wish You Were Here We all get at least one good wish a year. Over the candles on our birthday. Some of us throw in more. On eyelashes. Fountains. Lucky stars and every now and then one of those wishes comes true. So what then? Is it as good as we’d hoped? Do we bask in the warm glow of our happiness or do we just notice we’ve got a long list of other wishes just waiting to be wished. We don’t wish for the easy stuff, we wish for big things. Things that are ambitious, out of reach. We wish cause we need help, and we’re scared .... and we know we may be asking for too much. We still wish though, because........ sometimes......... they come true. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.12 – Sympathy for the Devil My mother used to say this about residency. It takes a year to learn how to cut, it takes a lifetime to learn not to. Of all of the tools on the surgical tray sound judgement it the trickiest one to master. And without it we’re all just toddlers running around with ten blades. We’re human. We make mistakes. We mis-estimate, we call it wrong. But when a surgeon makes a bad judgement call it’s not as simple. People get hurt, they bleed. So we struggle over every stitch, we agonize ... over every suture. Because the snap judgements, the ones that come to us quickly and easily without hesitation, they’re the ones that haunt us forever. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.13 – Stairway to Heaven Denny [voice over] Beginning Voice Over: I believe in heaven. I also believe in hell. I've never seen either but I believe they exist. They have to exist. Because without a heaven, without a hell, we're all just headed for limbo. Denny: [voice over] Heaven. Hell. Limbo. No one really knows where we are going. But the one thing we can say for sure, with absolute certainty, is that there are moments that take us to another place. Moments of heaven on earth. And maybe for now that's all we need to know. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.14 Beat Your Heart Out Any first year med student knows that an increased heart rate is a sign of trouble. A racing heart could indicate anything, from a panic disorder to something much .... much more serious. A heart that flutters or one that skips a beat could be sign of a secret affliction .......... or it could indicate romance, which is the biggest trouble of all. It seems like we have no control over our own hearts. Conditions can change without warning ... romance can make the heart pound just like panic can. And panic can make it stop cold in your chest. It’s no wonder that doctors spend so much time trying to keep the heart stable, to keep it slow, steady, regular ..... to stop the heart from pounding out of your chest from the dread of something terrible or the anticipation of something else entirely. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.15 – Before and After Every patient’s story starts the same way, it starts with them being fine, it starts in the ‘before’. They cling to this moment this memory of being fine, this ‘before’, as though talking about it may somehow bring it back. But what they don’t realize is that the fact that they’re talking about it to us, their doctors ..... means..... there’s no going back. By the time they see us they’re already in the ‘after’. And while every patient story starts the same way how the story ends depends on us, how well we diagnose and treat. We know the story hinges on us, and we all want to be the hero. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.16 – An Honest Mistake There’s this thing that happens when people find out you’re a doctor. They stop seeing you as a person and begin to see you as something bigger than you are. They have to us that way, as gods, otherwise we’re just like everyone else. Unsure, flawed, normal. So we act strong, remain stoic, hide the fact that we’re all too human. Patients see us as gods or they see us as monsters but the fact is, we’re just people. We screw up. We lose our way. Even the best of us have our off days. Still we move forward ... we don’t rest on our laurels or celebrate the lives we’ve saved in the past. Because there’s always some other patient that needs our help. So we force ourselves to keep trying, to keep learning ..... in the hope that, maybe, someday we’ll come just a little bit closer to the gods our patients need us to be. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.17 – I Will Follow You Into The Dark Every surgeon I know has a shadow. A dark cloud of fear and doubt that follows even the best of us into the O.R.. We pretend the shadow isn’t there, hoping that if we save more lives, master harder techniques, run faster and farther it’ll get tired and give up the chase. But like they say ..... you can’t outrun your shadow. Every surgeon has a shadow.....and the only way to get rid of a shadow is to turn off the lights, to stop running from the darkness and face what you fear. Head on. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.18 – Stand By Me Opening VO: Surgeons aren't known for being warm and cuddly. They're arrogant, impatient, mean as often as not. You'd think they wouldn't have friends, because who could stand them! But surgeons are like a bad cold - nasty but persistent. Surgeons. Nasty, aggressive, unstoppable. Just the kind of people you want on your side when you're really screwed. Closing VO: Practicing medicine doesn't lend itself well to the making of friends. Maybe because life and mortality are in our faces all the time. Maybe because in staring down death every day we're forced to know that life, every minute, is borrowed time. And each person we let ourselves care about is just one more loss somewhere down the line. For this reason, I know some doctors who just don't bother making friends at all. But the rest of us, we make it our job to move that line. To push each loss as far away as we can. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 5.19 – Elevator Love Letter Alex: [voice over] Surgeons are all messed up, we’re butchers. Messed up, knife happy butchers. We cut people up, we move on. Patients die on our watch, we move on. We cause trauma, we suffer trauma. We don’t have time to worry about all the blood and death and crap really makes us feel. Alex: [voice over] It doesn’t matter how tough we are, trauma always leave a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up but maybe that’s the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap, maybe going through all that is what keeps us moving forward. It’s what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up before we can step up. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Edited by oncetherewasaway, Apr 7 2009, 11:46 PM.



oncetherewasaway	Nov 20 2008, 04:51 PM Post #6
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oncetherewasaway	Nov 20 2008, 04:51 PM Post #7
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